Tori Spelling recently shared a very personal audio recording with her ex-husband, Dean McDermott, where she told him that she filed for divorce after 18 years of marriage. The "Beverly Hills 90210" star was recording her podcast, misSPELLING," when she anxiously told listeners that she was about to call McDermott to tell him the news. "I don't know what feels more like a punch in the stomach: that it's out there and it's final, or that I have to call him right now," she says. "He's at work, you guys. This sucks." Spelling calls him and leaves a message, where McDermott calls her back minutes later. The listeners can only hear Spelling's side of the conversation, where she starts off by saying, "I hate to do this to you," while McDermott is going to work before telling him that "they've done it." He seemingly expressed concern about how the media would respond to her filing for divorce first. "I feel like I deserve to file first," she tells him. When she gets off the phone, Spelling tells listeners that her ex told her, "Great, good. I have a lawyer. I was going to do this, but cool. Saves me $500."

The divorce filing came after McDermott shared last year with Daily Mail that he and Spelling were separated. He revealed details from their marriage saying they were living more as roommates rather than a married couple. "We were roommates," he said. "Rarely, rarely, rarely did we eat together. We'd sit down and have a family meal, but it was always disjointed." On the podcast, Spelling can be heard telling McDermott it made sense for her to file for divorce first after he "put it all out there with Daily Mail," adding that he revealed "things I would never have divulged to anybody."

Spelling and McDermott were married for 18 years and share five children together: Liam Aaron, 17, Stella Doreen, 15, Hattie Margaret, 12, Finn Davey, 11 and Beau Dean, 7.